Am I CRAZY?!

So as you know my husband and I were not on the best of terms.. 

He came back from his deployment on Friday.. Now I have this flood of emotions and, unfortunately, I WANT HIM BACK!

Gracious. My head is CRAZY! I really hope I’m not making a HUGE mistake!

 

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What about America?

So often you will see commercials, billboards, or radio advertisements about starving children, families and individuals in other countries. Videos of them living in poverty, so often pops up on our screens. But have you ever taken a moment and thought about your fellow Americans?

What about the person down the street that is staying under the bridge tonight? What about that person that doesn’t have a place to call home? People are quick to jump on the phone or internet to donate to the people in other countries. BUT ONCE AGAIN. WHAT ABOUT AMERICA, PEOPLE?!

When you see a homeless person on the side of the road asking for money you automatically assume that they put themselves there. And I have done that before too. We are all guilty of this terrible act. But what if this person or even a family just fell into hard times? I know if I lost my job and couldn’t find one I’d do whatever necessary to take care of my son and myself.

There is an organization called P.O.C (Pieces of Change). I personally know the founder and creator of this organization and it is the most moving NON-profit organization that I’ve ever heard of. Their mission is to take the homeless off of the streets, give them housing, give them some kind of education, give them job training, and ultimately find them a job to get back on their feet so they no longer have to beg for money or food. It is an 18 month program to rehabilitate the homeless and make them feel like they are worth something. It’s truly so moving to hear this man talk about this organization and how dedicated and passionate he is about POC. God is working in GREAT ways with this man and organization. I will later post a link to his website. He asked me not to share it because it is under construction!

 

Stop and think about America.

GOD BLESS!

Horoscope Truths.

So I’ve never been the type of person to religiously get into the whole horoscope phenomenon. But I do read mine from time to time. I guess for no reason but pure curiosity.  Wondering if things could really be predicted by a horoscope, if they are correct, or just a bunch of mumbo jumbo.

Today, while at work I decided to click and read what my horoscope predicted this beautiful day..

Well as you all may know if you follow my blog my husband and I are working on a divorce. No legal papers have been signed but we both know that it’s over. Some thing just isn’t the same anymore. Plus, I’m not in love with him anymore. I don’t miss talking to him, I don’t miss seeing him, I miss my son having his father every day but I don’t miss him for myself.

I’m a very social person. I get along with almost anyone I met. There is a man I work with, we’ve chatted sat and ate lunch together, what not and what have you. I’ve never thought about him as more then just a really great friend that would help me out whenever I needed it, until i read my horoscope this morning..

I know, I know, I will finally tell you what it says.. It says in a few more words that in the next few weeks it is time to grow a new relationship.. And he is the only person that comes to my mind when I think about those words…

I know this is bad. And I know that i don’t need to get into a relationship while still married. I get it. And I don’t want to get into a new relationship just getting out of one.

UGH..

This is my life….

WOW…

Good day and GOD BLESS

Sperm donor

So, about a month and a half ago my “husband” took me off of his bank account. Since then I have not seen a dime of child support for OUR son. So, today was the day that I decided to say something about it.

So I sit down and think about it and how exactly I’m going to say it. after some thought I figured the easiest way to do it was just to come out and say it.

I sent him a text that read “I am going to need some child support. Would you like me to take it out now or wait?”  I thought that was decent, didn’t sound rude…

Well….. His response was something along the lines of “I guess you can take it out now, I have stuff to pay, I really don’t need this added stress right now.” WTF?! You guess!?!? Your son is an added stress?! Mind you. This man makes 3000$ a month easily. There should be no problem. I’ve been supporting my son on less then $1000 a month.

Its so sad and upsetting for me to see this man, the same man that I married and once fell in love with turn into such a pill. he doesn’t realize that Lucas is both of ours. Not one more then the other. He is our son! I just don’t understand men that get married and start a family when the only person they ever think about is themselves.

Anyway, good day and GOD BLESS!!

Day one..

As I’m sitting here at work, I thought “What else better to do then to create a blog that no one is going to read”. So I guess that’s what I’m doing. 

I’m not really sure exactly what topic will be more talked about, I do know that it will just be about me and my day to day life.. Don’t get too excited, my life is pretty event less. I mean besides the fact that i have an 18 month old at home that is just a little too much like his father! 

So to start it off, My name is Kayla. I’m 19 years young, 20 in December. I do have an 18 month old son and I’m also married to a 21 year old CHILD! My son’s name is Lucas and he truly is my world. I don’t know where in the world I would be without him. I dropped out of school at 17 when I got pregnant with him.. I know! HUGE mistake! My “husband” ,if that’s what you want to call him, joined the Marine Corps at 18 years old. I have so much pride for this country and I now know the sacrifices that these wonderful men and women make everyday. 

My husband and I are on what you could call the “ROCKS”. We’ve been through a lot during his first deployment. Some things I’m still not sure if we can come back from. Trust is so very important in a relationship, and quite frankly, without trust, you don’t have a relationship. So I’m not really sure where we stand at the moment. Part of me wants to be with him, but I’m so scared that the only reason is that we made a miracle together. I don’t want to be unhappy anymore. As everyone says You Only Live Once. 

But, enough about that, it’s stressing me out even writing about it. hehe. 

More about my son! He is a brown eyed, blonde haired MASTERPIECE. I seriously don’t think God could have done any better! Now, with that being said, he is into EVERYTHING. But I have to keep asking myself throughout the day, all 18 month old toddlers are like this, RIGHT?!? He has 12 teeth, he is pretty slow at sprouting his teeth. He can easily say over 30 words, and probably about 15 phrases. He can say his ABC’s up until L, but I honestly think that it has a lot to do with his attention span. There are only 2 things that i have found that can keep his attention for longer then a few minutes one being a slide! That boy will slide and hurt himself for an hour with no problem! The 2nd biggest one would be WATER! HE LOVES WATER!! 

I work at Chico’s FAS INC. I work in their contact center. It’s really a Love Hate kinda relationship. Some days I dread walking through those doors just to get yelled at by another customer and other days I walk in with my head held high ready to deal with all the BS that comes through that phone. One thing I can say about this company is that it really is an amazing place to work. They really do take care of their associates. There’s no time limit you can be on the phone, there’s not supervisor breathing down your neck to do this do that. It’s a very laid back relaxing work place. The people are really great and so is the environment! But some of these calls, buddy, do I just want to reach through this phone and smack some of these rude people! People don’t realize when they call a company rather it be Chicos, Verizon, Boston Proper, whatever, THE PERSON YOU’RE TALKING TO, MOST LIKELY DIDN’T CAUSE YOUR PROBLEM. Don’t come at me yelling and screaming, because once you get to that level, I will no longer go out of my way to help you. Now, on the other hand, if you call here being nice and considerate, not saying you can’t express your frustration to me, I will bend over backwards to make sure your problem gets taken care of and you no longer have that problem again. It’s really all about how you treat a person. Treat everyone how they treat you! Point blank! 

Anyway, I think that’s a decent intro to my life! Maybe a little too much about work but I just had a very rude customer! 

Goodnight everyone and GOD BLESS!